Iridescent.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

华尔兹的含义就是旋转，在以前情侣没有办法在公开的场合见面只有借着聚会借着华尔兹才能表达对对方的思念，只有把手伸给最深爱的人才能舞出最美丽的回旋.....多么希望自己可以和自己爱的人一起共舞一段华尔兹，可以于自己爱的人跳舞是多么欢喜的一件事情. 最美丽的舞步。。。都远离了自己。。。只有把手伸给最深爱的人才能舞出最美丽的回旋，是否我这一生都看不到那美丽的回旋，让自己忘记你是多么难的一件事情，华尔兹爱人舞蹈静静的走出了我的世界....

♥ 9:29 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

不知道从什么时候开始总是希望自己有象电视上一样轰轰烈烈的爱情.也经常觉得电视上的爱情总是那么的美好,而且婉转曲折.可真正爱上一个人之后我却希望自己能有一份平淡的爱情.
终于明白为什么人们说爱情让人疯狂.也许人们都想让自己尽情的疯狂吧.但爱情不等于激情,总觉得那应该只是爱情的初级阶段.还记得有人曾这样说过"爱情是两个人牵手一辈子的勇气".一次又一次的欢乐与痛苦让我成熟了不少.也希望自己能拥有一份平静的爱情.

有人说两个人的爱情总是在等候和追赶中度过一生.也许两个人在心灵的成长上是很难达到一致.但只要两个人坚持,终有一天会走到一起的.我想那时候会是一种幸福的感觉.
呵呵,幸福其实就在自己的脚下,只要你懂得调整步伐,幸福就在不远的地方.

♥ 10:10 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

20th april:
went to sch and studied for physics test . after that went back to class for quiz . we didnt have the quiz . after that had physics test . think i did quite ok . but then i was shivering when writing the last qns . scary =x jiahong asked whether want to go watch movie at fabian hse . then continued with physics lessons . after that had maths lessons . didnt really do well . after that had pe lesson . had may ppl phones with me . hahas . week after next friday then going to have re-test for the broad jump .. then going to canteen then saw shuai ge lie on the floor . think he hurt his knee . then i had cramps . it is pain . lols . after that went back to class . mdm sal didnt come . did comprehension . after that went to look for cherie . wanted to wait for adeline . but then fabian called to say now watching the movie . went to his hse . watched a few . 2 of them we skipped some parts . think the shows are nice~ went back at 4 plus .. reach home at about 5plus . bath and watch tv and went to cwp at bout 6 .. bought ljs for shuai ge ^^ he injured so i helped to buy his dinner then . walked to his hse . i do rmb which floor he stayed . hahas . sad lors . he injured . hahas . take cares =)) after that went to look for jiahao they all . went home at 9+ . acc sis to buy dinner . on the phone for a few hrs . slept at 1++ .

21th april :
today watched tv the whole morning . went to buy breakfast for 2 sister . after that went home and made jelly specially for mum = xy's frens , shini , shiprah and angela came . to try out how long will they take to cook for their practical exam . i helped them . cos the 3 so blur . they so cute lor . didnt buy this and that then start to cook lers . also did the cleaning up of kitchen as i helped them . went to bath and washed the toilet . after that went to help them to adjust the time for the pie and baked potato . xy's other 2 frens also came . then they came to try the food . the baked potato is ok . but the pie abit too salty . lols . helped them do the washing and everything . went off at 3+ to meet aaron . went to search for presents .. aaron bought a bread which is 17cm in diameter . lols . i bought small danish .. went to admiral garden and slack lo . eugene came when i am about to leave . then he send me home . watched wang zi bian qing wa . nice~ after that meet eugene and went to admiralty park . he helped me carry bag . thanks ! reached there and read my comic . jeremy passed me the disc he bought for me . ade came at about 8+ . chat till 9+ . i send her home lehs . i am good afterall . lols . went back to basketball court .. then stomach pain . cos eugene bought cold drink give me .. but must still appreciate his drink . lols . reached home at about 10+ . watched KO one . haven watch hana kimi yet . he bught these 2 discs . feeling rather guilty . cos i told him i like that 2 show . but still must thank him .

take care loads ; alex my shuai ge ^^ lols . he is great afterall .

♥ 11:15 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

“我们分手吧,分手之后,我们还是朋友，对吗?”这是有心人对你讲的话,除了要表现他们的大将风度之外,他们更渴望能新欢旧爱,共聚一堂. 原本相爱的恋人,面对分手,或有不得已的原因,或有不得告人的理由.而分手之后仍要做一对朋友,岂不是把过去的一切又带回自己的生活中?何苦呢?当然,我也不赞成分手之后,变成了敌人、仇家，,互相中伤对方,恨不得把对方至于死地.看到以前的恋人,生活比你幸福,你会不会嫉妒?当以前的恋人,兴奋的带着新恋人做介绍时,即便你装做满不在乎,但心里的滋味..... 你又何苦自己找黄莲来嚼呢?如果以前的恋人生活的不幸福,你的旧情加上同情心,一定会想很多......毕竟,你们以前是相爱的恋人,你们也曾经拥有过美好的爱情生活,面对以前的恋人失意迷茫,你会伸出援助之手吗?你会不会又落进那感情的旋涡呢?　　最后,大家都有了新的一半,你继续和以前的旧爱做朋友,新情人心里会怎么想,藕断丝连?新欢肯定心中不满,更可怕得是,在猜疑与辩解中,生成几何关系来.当然,也有一些成功的,但是听起来,总是有丝丝的尴尬.未曾刻骨铭心,分手后做朋友又谈何容易?看着自己以前的恋人,与别人亲亲我我、欢天喜地,你肯定会有...... 何必自己做戏给自己和他们看呢?已经分手了,为什么还要刻意的去维护一种近似超越友谊的关系呢?不如把它封在心里,怀念,或者扔掉它,迎接新的一段生活. 分手了,何必再要做朋友?否则,何言分手?我的感想：既然分开了，就不应该在彼此的生活中出现了。我能做到的，就是让她的世界里没有我，不给她添任何麻烦。所以我消失，不再联系，就算QQ上和她聊都觉得扭。我记得有个帖子说分手后还能做好朋友的，那说明他们彼此没有付出真爱----有些道理。彻底的不联系，不见面。就算见面打招呼都是由心情决定。就算我和她再见面我都不想打招呼，我想，我会微笑。不是我没有风度，而是见面真的不知道说什么。不做朋友，不是我小气，也不是我不敢面对现实，自欺欺人。而只是我自私。觉得这样自己会轻松些。在这里我要认真、清醒的告诉她：“你过得开心也好，不开心也罢，请不要来我的伤口上撒盐，特别是在我的伤痛从未复原的时候,当你不能够......

just took it from someone's blog . think it is quite nice .. lols . i wanna see fireworks =x

♥ 9:35 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

went to sch at 6+ as per normal . had silent reading . after that went back to class for 3 periods of bio lesson . junhong in a bad mood . then slam the door and windows . hais . then hurt himself also . too agitated . reproduction of plants is really boring . glad that i gt kangshen and DJH to talk to me . djh(MR COOL) very funny today i guess . after that had 1 period of chemistry . sry mr tan . think i am going to let u down for tmr test .. he used about half an hour ytd to make me understand just 2 factors-large surface area and small particle size will have a faster reaction . of course ks and jh was also explaining to me .. and i gt 3 person-s teaching me . zzz . during that 1 period .. he was looking at me . guess i was the only one who didnt understand .. then ks say smth .. make me damn demoralised lor . making me now think that when i gt into 3e1 last yr .. was it purle by luck .. hais . upset me alot .. cherie cried . cos of her work .. then i also cried during eng . really donno wad to do .. feel so lost . and we are nt allowed to go to the work attachment . wth . dont understand why . hais . did nth much during mt . then maths . i was taking a long time for 1-3mark qns . wad am i doing . and the chapter is sets . hais . guess i am gonna flunk my amaths during mid-yr . feeling SO-demoralised and nt having the motivation to study . then break . cherie with wl they all . i didnt noe whr liling they all . then went to look for fabian . the way they played bball make me laughed i guess . went to hall and talk to liling . she is 1 person who just read my blog post and will know many things even without saying much .. i am glad . went to com lab for some quiz and stuff . played the com games . i scored better than the last time i played this game . was a captain . now colonel ^^ win my shuai ge =D after that had a reak for 30 mins . had choice at 2.45pm . in between quite ok .. and cs didnt wash his shoes and it smells . yucks . asked him go wash the shoes . he asked me to wash instead . zzz . whr gt this type of guy so bad . then as usual .. ks , matt , fookie , jose , jordan will discuss the same topic .. lame ders . mrs ram teach sexual reproduction in animals . quite ok bahs . then donno y wl stand outside the class . hais . donno how to clear the misunderstanding now ever since he say all those . choice end at bout 3.45pm . didnt go for swimming . anyway i have step down . but i miss swimming . went to vista to eat with fabian , djh , fookie , junhong . but he joined us later . ate and played cards . went home at bout 4+ . raining .. then reached home at 5+ . bath and watch tv . gt love at dolphin bay . i like that show alot . but it seems that there is crying every epsiode . now studying chem . at least get a 'b' . so as to nt let mr tan disappointed bahs . and disappoint mr cool and ks .

the past is the past . nth is able to change . i have know and understand . but it doesnt make a difference any longer since the hurt has already been inflicted .
thinking of ways to clear the misunderstanding .
my idols : shuai ge , mr cool , pk =DD lols

♥ 8:36 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

today is friday the 13 .. it seems to be a bad day . we had the international friendship quiz today .. hmm . we abit blur blur abt the last qns . hahas . after that had silent reading . then the counsellors went to take photos i guess .. me , pk and yihui were stopped y mr junus . he sort of lectured us . saying tat we cannot go for the work attachment . hais . i was feeling so disappointed . i was so interested and excited .. so did pk they all . who knows whether on tat 3 days we will study . plus we can study in the nite also .. we went back to the class with him . it's true tat this year 4e1 is busier since most of us had commitments .. but if we can manage the time well , i think it is quite ok . i do agree with him tt it's worrying as we are nt doing well . but this work attachment may jus be only once . hais .

had maths lesson and miss wee went through amaths with us .. somehow i feel i am stupid bahs . cos i know the concept but i donno how to apply .. hope it wont happen like this on monday test .. had pe after that .. played captain's ball . we won ^^ jiahong , cs they all had 2.4 run . pig c.s ra 10.00 . think he bluff me de . he everytime so fast .. after that take ht and wt . sians . i put on weight . then recess lers . had english lesson . there was this commotion about junan and jane . LOL . michelle they all asked mrs tan about the attachment thingy . did the interview paper thing . then went back to class . having napfa test later . clean my table .. then also helped my shuai ge clean also . then also helped matthew , fooktak and kangshen . zixin and jiahong had already washed theirs .. then went on to sweep the class . there is so much dirt + dust . kim and yipeen cleaned the whiteboard . went to help them after i was done sweeping . gt 1 uncle came to check the classrooms . he gave us a star =) after tt went to hall . did sit n reach then followed y the other stn . i only did 48 which meant i lose the bet . hais . jus 1 more and i will win the bet lers .. didnt jump well . get only 1 pt for standing broad jump . want to cry lor .. jiahong say i didn jump with the maximum effort .. guess wad he say is true . or maybe i was affected by smth .. but now i shall wait for the re-test . after that went to cherie hse to slack . suan her all the way to her hse .. a hungry man is a angry man . lols .. adeline was very hungry lo . cooked cup noodles for her . after tt did geo , cherie did maths . ade donno do wad . hahas . the 2 of them fell asleep .. i went off at 6+ . left them a note .. and helped her clean up . after tt went off for tuition . still on transformation . went to cherie hse to take pe t-shirt . reached home at 10+ .

he was once so important to me . but now everything has changed and wont change in the future .. Mr xxx once told me tat sentosa is a place where i can dump my bad and sad memories . he is always the one who always listened to me and making me laugh .. now i decided nt to throw away the sad ones bcos it is so dear to me .. the only thing that linked us is the memories we had together once ..

♥ 11:57 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

hais . dont feel like writing anything much . i am just sick . having napfa test soon . wonder how am i gonna pass it .

♥ 8:16 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

7th april:
today woke up quite early . went to pay my bills at civic there . went to buy breakfast . reached home at 10+ . and watched the last 2 episode of fireworks[korean show] . quite nice .. did housework while watching . cos time is short . bath and everything , lend jacket from chonglin and to went to meet ade first . then jaslyn , cheryl . at first quite awkward . didnt noe wad to say .. after awhile gt talk abit .. reached choa chu kang ; went to ljs to eat . me and ade didnt eat . after that went to kbox and sing . we were like pushing the mke to each other . lols . hmm . didnt sing well . cos i am sick . sad lors . cant even sing high pitch .. keep going in and out of the room 50 . hmm . then i went everywhere to search for a packet of tissue . then no choice went to more than words and bought 1 big packet . inside gt 6 small de . then sing till 5+ and we went off . ill was 80++ . after that went to take neoprint . ade went off first cos she had smth on . then after awhile we also went ack cos jaslyn also need to go home . they alighted at woodlands . me alight at admiralty . went home and changed out off my jeans and watch wang zi bian qing wa for awhile . went to admiralty with sis , samatha . they ought dinner . i slacked at there while waiting for eugene . saw his mum . i was so happy . i missed her alot .. she is great =) then he finally came . bought bbt . he owe me de . hahas . went to admiral garden . didnt wait for jeremy . he is slow . reached there . returned the jacket . waited for glenn to bring his basketall . after that . i just sit there and slack with differet ppl talking to me at all times . hwee liang , dick , mingyuan , desmond came to bball court also . then they play match lo . after awhile yu hang came . long time didnt see him . me must look after 3 psp . zz . went back at 10 . went to the nite market there like ytd . reached home at 10+ . bath and watch the hide cat cat . slept at 11 . quite tired . i had fun today .

8th april:
today woke at 5+ . cos need to go mandai there to pray lo . reached there and saw wei xuan . he still so cute~ went home at 9+ . bath and went to sleep . woke up at 12+ . clean up ; went to study with eugene and aaro . went to rc ear cherie hse . cherie came at bout 4+ . aaron went to look for his frens . asked jeremy for help cos eugene took my geog txtbk . he so ke lian . gt bullied by me . then they send me home . reached home and watched tv . helped sis to prepare her stuff for her practical tmr . now so sian going to slpbahs . maybe . lols .

♥ 8:45 PM

Friday, April 06, 2007

very long didnt post ler .. hahas .

30th march:
it is sports day .. went there with faith , her sis and jess . after tt went to help mrs ram with the making of badge . were out of the stadium . wet ack to stadium at about 10+ . then in and out of stadium . went in and it was the cca relay . hmm . some things then everything that i controlled for quite some time were all let out . didnt want to let ppl know the reason . didnt want to let them wry . liling and carrine hug me and i cried even harder . hais . gt yipeen , kim ade , and many ppl tissue and i used up all ler . thanks . mr adrian also noticed . after that walk to cwp then saw djh . didnt take bus with carrine they all . i didnt know wad to say . then went to horizon and meet terance they all . after tt went walk walk awhile and went to interchange take us . ter , jh , fabian want go my hse lors . zzz . take some time to convince nt to . and i disc-ed the day after that at home .

i didnt want to recognise the fact that there are ppl by me who kept me smiling , thinking of possile solutions to make me happy . thanks ! i am grateful to u guys . and happy that i have u all by me . it hurts . but u guys have slowly take my mind off him .

happy birthday to adeline =)

31st march:
wet out with jackie , jiahao ad changhong . went to bugis and shop . bought ade + cherie present kor bought bag for me . went back at 5+ . went to cwp . watch a movie . watch t.m.n.t. . i quite of like the show . it is cute . hahas . after that went to walk walk and went to take neoprint . saw cherie they all . gt many ppl . then went to walk . then take neoprint 2 times . went back at 10+ .

1st april:
IT'S APRIL FOOL . wrapped their presents and wrote the cards . hmm . went to mac to meet eugene and aaron after tt . after that chonglin came , we went kfc eat . i did my homework . keep arguing with eugene . hahas . after that rc there study . did geo and maths . after that basketball court for awhile and went home . disc-ed the nite after that .

2nd april:
went to sch as per normal . sians . celerate cherie and ade belated bdae . after tt i broke down . guess i haven get over the friday incident . cherie also cried . after that matt they all also noticed my crying bahs . couldnt help it .. lessons and then 2nd break . ade cried . cherie say is cos of my card . hmm . must stay happy . had lessons and geography choice . after that went to library . did my review on the alumni afternoon thingy . after that went off lers . and home sweet home .

happy birthday cherie =)

3rd april:
had lessons . nth much . had physics choice . i was late by bout 3 mins and the bus was gone . didnt go for swimming den . went home ad disc-ed the day once i reached home . last few days was watching e mo zai sheng bian . now watching zhong ji yi ban . i am abit slow . hahas . ade making short cake . if i spell correct . lols . in the end she tmr pass me . hahas . and i continued my show till late nite lo .

4th april:
went to sch . ade passed me . quite nice . cherie had syf thingy . had lessons . everytime i almost dozed off . thik had fun in chem lesson . played some games . jiahong say after 4 yrs this is 1 interesting lesson . smth like that . after tt went out of class for bio lesson . disect flowers and did drawings . had maths choice after that . went home and disc-ed the day . in between bought dinner . and continued my show .

i guess it is the end . sry . congratulations to co for getting gold in syf .

5th april:
had lessons as normal . cherie didnt come sch today . she sick . take care .. kangshen say i very HIGH . lols . during chem spa teacher ask who can sing . thik many in class can de lor . did experiment . we were like arguing over whether the precipitate dissolves i excess ammonia . guess my experiment was wrong from the start . after that went back for ss lesson . miss chee tell me i can go for the interview for the course . i have a chance =) as long i nt colour blind , short-sighted is nt a prob . after that was break . gt work attachment for underwater world . but i cant go . it's for sec 3s .. hais . was feeling kinda of disappointed . after that had lessons . was hoping for eng lesson . then me and carrine went to ask mrs tan . she say nt confirm but maybe can . i smiled happily =)) had lessons and had a talk after sch . cherie came to sch . she hor . hahas . went to mac with ade and chat . went back at 6+ . and disc-ed till 8+ . bath and everything . cherie came . then we went to admiral garde chat . wet 630 bought drink and we chat till 10+ . reached home about 11 . changed blogskin . chat on msn and slept in quite late .

feeling rather guilty ..

6th april:
woke up quite early . disc-ed the whole morning . then the disc abit spoil spoil . and it is the last episode lor . sians . stop at 11+ like tt . went to admiralty to see the rental thingy for disc . 30+ . just for 1 episode which i want to see . must lend whole set . lols . then didnt rent lers . hahas . sis bought ingredients . now doing my blogging while cooking and helping my sis . and also waiting for the last episode of KO one . later going to admiral garden ahs . feeling tired . hahas . going to watch my show lers . smiles *

waiting for his appearance . it seems that everywhere i go , there seem to be shadows of him ..

used 2 hrs to write . lols .

♥ 3:57 PM