didnt blog for quite sometime lers . my dear kim and liling asked me why . lols ..
26th March: went to sch abit late . had silent readig in class cos rain . many were doing bio . was silent reading . then maths . went through vectors lo . and then bio . then eng and break . sians . then geo and mt . went through oral stuff . having oral exam during afternoon . then was physics . went through workbook . then maths . did vectors again. and then chem . mr tan was late . after tt had oral . i very nervous . kangshen keep disturbing and scaring me . yeah ! finish my book lers . then wait for my turn . okays . i did badly i suppose . my sentence all like halfway like tt de . alex and fabian also . hahas . alex quite slow de lo . we at the same time read passage but when i finish . he haven . lols . after tt went off with my shuai ge & xiao ke ai =) help them carry their stuff . walk fabian to his hse the me ad alex walk to cwp there . chat and talk about stuff lo . he know ler lors .. but he didnt tell me his . zzz . and he still say he will consider . then went to take mrt while he walk home . went to pig's hse . went off at 7+ to go tuition . too stupid lers . did nth much . reached home at 9+ .
27th March: woke up at 5+ . sis was gone y 6 cos she gt choir stuff . reached and study bio . then went to sit with fooktak they all and asked them . alex warned me that he will say out . is more of threaten to me lor . think i screwed up everything . i go rinse the peanut cos i see the flame so big . zzz . after that was chem . think chem spa is titration bahs . then it hurts alot lo . hais . dont really have appetite but still eat bahs . awhile pain , awhile no pain . zzz . then kangshen at there wry . thanks :) the was eng . i passed the test .. then mt . did mt test . tmr need to continue . then amaths . teacher teach new stuff lo . didnt really have the mood to do . the break . asked kangshen helped me buy drink .. after that was lcd . me and jiahong do bio workook . actually no need to do . we 2 still do lo . the rest did their stuff . after that went to hall for concert performace . was quite touched ..after that had chem choice .. i donno whole chapt on electrolysis . after that went with fabian , jh , cs , jordan , fooktak , matt . matt didnt went to play soccer . on our way saw migyuan . the he joined us . i didnt play . i just went to see see . went to vista and bought stuff to eat . after that went to 515 there help they all buy drinks . they all so funny de lo when they play . mingyuan left . susequently jordan and fooktak left too . then we went to fabian hse and chat . went home at 6+ . watch my disc ad wet out to meet pig . and also help mum and sis buy things . korkor pass me the disc . so happys =D wet home at 9+ . tired . gonna sleep soon . nites **
i guess i have fallen in love with the wrong person . at this very moment . i am not sure wad my mind is thinking of . hais . feeling rather tired . hais . alex shuai ge must not tell others hor .
♥ 10:43 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
13th March: woke up at 8+ . helped mum with the cooking of curry . then went to sch with the decoration of class . reached there but cannot cos gt co camp . then slack in sch for awhile and went to cwp with kim . we went walk walk and see stuff . want to buy the same thing de . hahas . in the end . we didnt . i so honoured ! kim first time eat candy floss ! i bring her go eat de lor . lols . so honoured ! she so cute lor . we 2 like go back to childhood .. hahas =) went home at 4+ . reached home and watched tv for awhile . then pei pei came . went out with her . wanted to go lot 1 . in the end we went to cwp . before going went to kfc to look for michael they all . hahas . the the 2 of us went to shop shop . bought stuff and took neoprints . bought candy floss again . hahas . i eat very fast . then went back at 8+ and went to admiral garden to look for michael . then roy also at there . went back at 9+ . watched tv . sleep quite early .
14th March: woke at 9+ . tired . wet to take my specs at 1+ . wet out with ade at 3+ . went kbox . sang till 8 . we 2 so crazy . lols . had fun =)) cherie must be hopping mad if she know .. lols . after that didnt do much ..
15th March: today woke at 8 . and i am having physics lesson . took taxi . wet to 4e1 classroom . but lesson was at 4t1 classroom . lols . can hear mr junus voice from far . hahas . had physics lesson until 9.30am . almost half of the class is gone . hahas . then had amaths lesson till 11.30pm . did the formlaes and stuff . went to buy bbt . the went home . went to look for mum . after tt went home and clean up . went to meet gavin , eugene and chonglin . the went to cwp . shishan , waiting , aaron came . went to buy tickets . watched just follow law . very funny lors . hahas . keep laughing . hahas . the show ends at 7+ . about 2 hrs . hahas . after that went home . did abit housework . then wet to bbc to look for them . glenn and guohao taking part in CSS . jiayou ! i wont take part de . lols . after that shishan , han long , michael came . hahas . ade also came . we chatted . after the lights were off , wet to admiralty . shishan , chonglin , michael , aaron send me home . although they keep saying they not . hahas. i love them lots <33
♥ 11:50 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
today woke up at 6+ and panicked .. thought i was late for school .. then i thought hard and realised it is saturday . lols .. then sleep and woke up at 8+ .. watched tv and went to cici to pay all the bills . bought lunch for sis and went home . clean up and went out at 2+ to meet fabian they all . saw his mum on the bus .. i miss her alot .. really alot . i didnt have the courage to say hi to her .. hais . tears welled up and came like a rain . reached woodgrove . meet fabian and terance and went to yang chiak hse . alex still at home cos he game-ing .. reached his hse and gt ppl i donno de lo . watched scorpion king .. and alex came . after awhile more ppl came .. but not many .. played cards with alex , fabian , ter . did nth much . yang chiak cooked pasta for us . it is nice ~ after that watched X-MEN 2 .. adam came lo . elaine and peiyee also came . i ate the pasta after so many ppl asking . wasnt in a gd appetite .. after the show end . went to play captain ball with the rest . hmm . me and alex in team B . adam and fabian another . we played on the road . plus it is like a slope like that . hahas . then gt 1 small and cute cute de boy in my team . he is cute~ after awhile gt 1 more small boy join us . i call him mr pass .. he always say pass .. LOLS . but we lost . halfway alex went back . not sure of the reason though . after game ended , went back and rest lers . me and michelle chatted .. gossipped and stuff . lols . hahas . then yipeen came and the 3 of us + alex and fabian chat .. yang chiak came sit awhile and i drank his red wine .. he say it is sweet .. but it is not lors .. hahas . then ate the chocolates . it is nice ^^ then i asked yang chiak pour me a glass . not more than half but more than one-quarter . lols . then fabian also drink mine . then i ask him to pour me more . yipeen say i am addicted lers =x after that watch scooby doo .. hahas . alex and fabian did the same action . then me and alex say the girl flexible . she is lors . lols . went back and 9+ . me and fabian walk fast fast leave yipeen and alex . lols . gt pics of their backview . hahas . then me and fabian chat . talked about stuff . went back and walked past his hse . i miss his mum .. took 962 bus and went to admiralty . meet chonglin and aaron . then went to mac to meet michael . we went to bridge .. then i told them about this guy , A . he wants to meet me . but i donno who is him and he donno me . we are just 2 complete strangers . and he tells me loads of stuff . the 3 of them ask me not to talk to him . they and terance they all say the same thing . zzz . they send me home . and i laughed my way home lors . hahas . reached home at 10+ and watched tv . now doing nth much .. yawns**
i am happy that i forgotten him . i do not have any feeling . guess that is wad happen after being hurt so deeply . just want drink red wine . guess i am addicted ? lols .
♥ 11:53 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
didnt blog for few days lers . nth much happen . today went sch and bought wrapper to wrap the present for alex .. after tt went to parade lers . kim came and i want to give alex the present . then she say wait for jess and yipeen .. had silent reading . and then mass run . me , wenhui and sherry were the first few . then me and wenhui continue lo . then joesphine and 1 more girl run at constant speed lor . think they tmr confirm win lers . me and wenhui so demoralised . went back for emaths lesson and we passed alex his present . then we sang birthday song to him . think he blushed ? lols .. he so funny lo .. hahas . then was chinese . wasnt paying attention .. then break .. stayed in class . alex de ans for bio is wrong de -xx hahas . then stayed in class and chat .. then went down to assemble and then chemistry spa .. hais .. fabian is sick .. must take care =) then ss . i didnt fall asleep .. hahas . then break . ate abit and went back to class . then 12.45 went to library for health checkup . was the last girl . cos i was doing physics . forgot all about the formulaes .. sians . then had amaths lessons in the library .. went back and was english . teacher didnt come .. think change modules ler . and then bio . we file up the worksheets .. then was mt choice and i went for meeting after tt . went home and watch my only you - korean show .. nice~ until now . finishing soon . guess i not meeting up with jiahong they all to go bbq lers . staying at home to watch my show ..
happy birthday alex =)
♥ 8:48 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
liling asked whether i am sad or angry or ?? hmm . the thing is i have no idea . so .. there is no point in asking me or making guesses . ytd want in a really good mood . guess things didnt go the way as i thought . i mean . this is reality . when has things in my life gone the way i wanted ? i doubt so . hais . briefly say wad happened ytd bahs ..
wake up early in the morning just to go running . and on the way home . my stomach ? i think so . it hurts badly . guess my bone marrow is working too hard . went home and clean up . did housework lo . and bath and everything . went to aunty sally hse lers . went there and borrowed disc from her . she gt so many lo . think more than 50 ? so i borrowed 3 korean de . and 1 donno wad is that . but quite funny bahs .. then played cards lo . just for fun . zz .. sians . then suddenly have a 2nd thought of not going to town with them . so i msged ppl and asked whether want to watch movie . then terance ask me acc him go . then go lo . anyway need to buy alex present .. reached . and we were like walking in pairs . then went to buy a;ex present . me and kim not really happy bahs . was going back to meet him to go watch movie . blame it on my soft ears i have . and i didnt go and watch movie .. feeling sorry that i ps him .. i asked him out and i didnt turn up . and the worse thing is i go there just to get myself upset . wad a weirdo i am . so i just keep singing just to distract from myself .. msged him and some others . to divert my attention . sometimes i wonder .. what is the purpose of living .? everyone has their purpose . wad about mine ? why are problems never-ending ? i mean is not only for me . some others also have never-ending problems . when i have solved the problem on my relationship and stuff . here comes another . and wad ? expect me to use a smile and face all these stupid problems again ? hais . michael called !! and i was so glad that he called . bet he is the 1 of the guys who can make me laugh non-stop and i have no chance to be sad . went back at 9+ . i left them . and took another train . the reason is so simple . do u think i will want to let anyone see my tears flow ? who will want to let . of course there are some exceptional cases . me and kim was so low in spirits . everyone left and walked ahead of us . left the 2 of us walking slowly to the train station . i couldnt control my tears bahs . and the bad thing i s i donno why i cry !! how worse can it be when u cry , yet u do not know the reason .. went to walk walk and reach home at 10+ ..
now . i am going out to look for the ppl who can make me laugh non-stop . at least later in the nite . i wont be so pathetic . reality are always harsh . yet sometimes they are not . hmm . why does my blog some like an exposition or argumentative essay ? nvm .
♥ 4:30 PM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
FUCK ! WHY IS IT THAT TODAY IS A DAY WHICH WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ENDING WITH SMILES , ENDED WITH TEARS ?
i regret it alot . i shouldnt have gone . blame it everything on me . i am not the xuebing u all know before . i have changed for the worse . i just want to leave now !
♥ 10:59 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
it is still raining . sneezing the whole nite bahs . hahas . had silent readin and then mass exercise . didnt do anything much .. had maths and went through papers . we were abit stubborn though . but i gt an instinct that the ans is wrong lehs .. hahas . miss wee tell us about a girl called samantha . she 17 years old . she went through so much to get wad she wanted . if i ave to go through so much to get wad i want . i dont mind . then was mt . teacher webt through paper . didnt listened much .. then recess lo . had chemistry spa .. did 4 times lo . and every alternate time i dont get my readings . zzz .. we were guided in answering the qns . hahas . went back and had social studies . and then was recess lers . after tt had physics .. did the resistivity qns . and maths again . hahas . jiahong is funny de lors .. and then english . guess oh darling and laopa still moodless . laopa gt in the donno wad team .. hmm . forget =/ but he wasnt too happy about tt .. and then bio . we did filing for only 1 chapter and it took up 1 whole period . jiahong and alex passed me their files and workbook .. hahas . jiahong didnt go for the course again . i did bio notes . but i dont seem to do well . the thought of common test made me emo~ but wad to do .. i did it just for fun . t is just like copying the notes . just to let me know wad the chapter is talking about and remember abit of the chapter . but if i dont get an A for bio . i will be disappointed bahs .. went to vista with kim . she want to eat . and we chat .. talked about those again lo . wad can the 2 of us do except learning to forget and let go . but gd thing is i dont want to bother all these except BIO . at least this can keep me focused . went home at 5+ lo . and watched tv .. now blogging .. gonna do physics and i am off to bed . feeling very tired every now and then ..
can i fix the gap ? it seems that the gap is getting further and further between us . i guess time is needed . but how am i going to find enough time ? hais . feeling helpless . and today i knew so much things i do not want to know . hais .