liling asked whether i am sad or angry or ?? hmm . the thing is i have no idea . so .. there is no point in asking me or making guesses . ytd want in a really good mood . guess things didnt go the way as i thought . i mean . this is reality . when has things in my life gone the way i wanted ? i doubt so . hais . briefly say wad happened ytd bahs ..
wake up early in the morning just to go running . and on the way home . my stomach ? i think so . it hurts badly . guess my bone marrow is working too hard . went home and clean up . did housework lo . and bath and everything . went to aunty sally hse lers . went there and borrowed disc from her . she gt so many lo . think more than 50 ? so i borrowed 3 korean de . and 1 donno wad is that . but quite funny bahs .. then played cards lo . just for fun . zz .. sians . then suddenly have a 2nd thought of not going to town with them . so i msged ppl and asked whether want to watch movie . then terance ask me acc him go . then go lo . anyway need to buy alex present .. reached . and we were like walking in pairs . then went to buy a;ex present . me and kim not really happy bahs . was going back to meet him to go watch movie . blame it on my soft ears i have . and i didnt go and watch movie .. feeling sorry that i ps him .. i asked him out and i didnt turn up . and the worse thing is i go there just to get myself upset . wad a weirdo i am . so i just keep singing just to distract from myself .. msged him and some others . to divert my attention . sometimes i wonder .. what is the purpose of living .? everyone has their purpose . wad about mine ? why are problems never-ending ? i mean is not only for me . some others also have never-ending problems . when i have solved the problem on my relationship and stuff . here comes another . and wad ? expect me to use a smile and face all these stupid problems again ? hais . michael called !! and i was so glad that he called . bet he is the 1 of the guys who can make me laugh non-stop and i have no chance to be sad . went back at 9+ . i left them . and took another train . the reason is so simple . do u think i will want to let anyone see my tears flow ? who will want to let . of course there are some exceptional cases . me and kim was so low in spirits . everyone left and walked ahead of us . left the 2 of us walking slowly to the train station . i couldnt control my tears bahs . and the bad thing i s i donno why i cry !! how worse can it be when u cry , yet u do not know the reason .. went to walk walk and reach home at 10+ ..
now . i am going out to look for the ppl who can make me laugh non-stop . at least later in the nite . i wont be so pathetic . reality are always harsh . yet sometimes they are not . hmm . why does my blog some like an exposition or argumentative essay ? nvm .