Iridescent.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

26th Feb:
went sch quite early . had silent reading lo . then had amaths lessons . but miss wee didnt come and teach us . she have course till wednesday bahs . did the amaths prelim book . then was biology . got back the test papers . only 26/40 . feeling utterly disappointed with myself .. and qns like wad am i doing ? did i really study ? why didnt i get a distinction ? in wad areas did i failed ? hais . i am disapponted with this results . my essays sucks ! JUST passed it . gt back eng paper during english lesson . i passed . junan passed and he was like laughing hysterically ? like a hyeena ? LOL . at least i wasnt so sad after tt . was recess . got back geography paper . expected tt i will get a borderline pass . didnt get back chinese paper . teacher not in sch . then was recess again . had physics then maths lessons again . and then chemistry . lessons are ok ? no idea ..

had cca after tt . didnt do much . they lost . hope they will cheer up soon .

27th Feb:
had bio spa . combined de . miss judith was talking for the whole 3 periods even though her gums were hurting . she was funny lo . then was chemistry . did the workbook . and then was english . were chatting with laopa and oh darling . i was laughing the whole period lo . every now and then . i am looking forward to english lesson =) gt back my paper during chinese lesson . didnt do well . or i can say the whole band 1 didnt really do well . i kinda of felt that it is unfair . the english and chinese papers are mark by the different band teachers . all gt different standard . hais . nvm . donno wad to say also . then was maths . did the emaths prelim book . recess . and then lcd lo . rs ram went through with us the o level stuff lo . then had assembly . gt performance . was chatting with faith the whole time . then went back for bio choice . jiahong went off lo . he didnt wait for mrs ram . she was late for about 30 mins . then she came and gave us other sch prelim paper and make a 'file' helped jiahong lo . after tt went for swimming . guess the bus today was late . then i heard 'chocolate , chocolate' again . lols . was tired lo . guess i slowed down alot . how am i going to take part in the competiton in july ? hais . reach scholl at 5+ and went to cwp . in the end mum told me no need to buy the yusheng thingy cos at home already got 2 lers . zzz . went home and saw 2 mahjong tables and so many ppl at my hse . serve and helped out lo . samantha came my hse after tt . we were very high lo . hahas . then clean up at 10+ . slept quite late .

am i really happy ? or am i deceiving myself once more ?

28th Feb:
went sch early today . helped samantha they all with their work . had silent reading . and then was mt . had the test . guess the qns are ste by mr toh ? cos he likes to set qns tt needs thinking and txtbk are not of much help some times . then was english . was chatting with laopa they all . had fun time laughing .. then was recess . was ss . but miss chee need tohelp out with the autodesk thingy then gt many principal come lo . then physics lessons . mr junus also went for the thing bahs . then the nie trainee teacher came and teach us . was feeling abit tired and almost the whole last row ppl slept . include me also . lols . then recess . sians . what is the pt of having 2 recess . zzz . . had chemistry . mr tan went through titration and did the workbook . still dont understand reduction and oxidation . hais . then was biology . quite interested in the microorganisms .. considering to specialise in tt ? went to canteen with jess .. then went to the bus with basketball 'b' boys . they having a match with sengkang sec . chatting with jess .. and mr ben keep asking we 2 come support who . LOLS . she support someone lo . i support everyone ^^ .. their match start lo . hmm . they lost .. saw my cousin . they lost to deyi sec . hais . i donno wad to do . there was silence in the bus . everyone was feeling tired . was raining heavily . zixin went off with marvin .. then someone with jess . then terance accompany me .. thanks =) was feeling ok bcos was feeling kinda of very down on the bus . at least i controlled my emotions if not i guess i have burst into tears on the bus . walk to vista .. terance pass me his uniform . i was trembling and feeling cold . thanks ! was coughing the whole time . wad to do ? hais . went to basic point to buy pencil lead . junan and desheng went to eat lo . terance accompany to bus stop . his uniform was wet lers . took 900 instead of 962 lo . he acc me to wait for the bus . thanks alot =) he went back when the bus came . then went to admiralty to buy dinner for sis and walked home . raining . hais . watched tv and now blogging lers . chat with junan .. hais .. she will understand de . feeling tired and abit feverish . nites **

hope that they will be okay soon especially laopa , oh darling , alex darling .. especially oh darling . he like completely demoralised . although he do not want anyone to worry .. but i worry alot . feeling so useless . i cant help them with anything .. as i talk to him . i really feel like crying .. he is a great guy . u worked very hard lers . i saw u being pushed and stuff . u are badly hurt . be it physically or mantally . i know u break ur promise to her . but she will understand . it seems to me that u lost ur smile .. it's easy to say . but not easy to do it . these few days .. let urself relax .. dont think so much . same goes to my laopa and alex darling .. thanks terance for accompanying me . it is a promise that i will not cry ..

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