Iridescent.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

ytd didnt blog . IT'S JUST THING DIDNT WENT WELL . HATE YESTERDAY . FORGET IT . IT IS THE PAST . woke at about 6 . damn tired lo . was doing my english homework and revising amaths till about 12 or 1+ in the morning . zzz . i reached home so late . no time to do . hahas . meet adeline and cherie in the morning . reached sch and nth much . had lessons . bio spa was quite ok .. miss judith was funny lo . hahas . donno was fm radio syuff . lols . then keep asking around lo . didnt really know how to do . cos i blur . dont really like to plot graphs for science . hahas . then back to class for chemistry . maybe we are fast ? almost finishing the whole textbook lers . then was break . revise abit for amaths . then went down to assemble . wasnt in a good mood . chia ming ask wad happen so did terance . guess nth bahs . then was english .. hand in my work lo . then lesson end . was chinese . mr toh didnt come today . but gt work . guess no one did it . many were revising amaths . keep asking chia ming . hahas . i blur ler . then amaths . gt test . gt butterflies in my stomach lo . hmm . quite okays ? must thank my grandfather chia ming . qns i asked came out . think i would pass ? wah .. the test no proving identites de lor . make me study like donno wad . hahas . nvm . at least i am prepared . maybe nt . then break lo . went down with cherie they all . we both no appetite . hmm . smth happen .

hmmm . dont be sad . it's alright de . sometimes expressing ur feelings through emotions by laughing or crying is better than keeping everything to yourself . nt like me . sometimes want to cry also cannot . everything so hard for me . hais . u can do better de . just practise more and dont get urself so tensed up . stay happy .

went back to class den . mrs ram was late . gt 1 free period . she came . and we discussed about our class tee design . guess our class gt many gd designers . quite a number of designs . still gt elimination round de . lols . but in the end . we cant decide and we decide to ask a designer help us design lor . then gt bio choice . nt really choice is more of a bio spa . need to go through the work . end at 3 pm lo . then went to canteen . bought carrot + fruit juice . nice~ then chit-chat with sam and shirley and i am off to training . gt so many sec 1 students lors . SO SURPRISED . 12 boys and i girl . hahas . so few girls lor . but nvm . i am graduating soon anyways . hahas . gd luck to the next captain and vice-captain . pin han and tricia . lols . then training lors . end at 5.15pm . reached asch at about 5+ going to be 6 . gt terance they all . was angry with terance . he hor . forget it . nvm . went home with sam . reached home at about 7 . watched tv lo . went to buy kfc with sis . didnt really have much appetite . went home and watched tv . lazy to do homework lehs . hahas . tmr gt so many homework . so sians . blog till here bahs . smiles*

i miss kimberly alot .. lols . school without u seems so pathetic for me . things didnt go too well for me . losing my precious turtle . forgetting everything about amaths . and so much else . hais .

tired lers . it seems tt i do not have tears . hard to squeeze out tears . the smiles i had in school are all FAKE . WAD CAN I DO ? fake ones . guess no one know about it . if u see me alone nt smiling . that is the real me bahs . the SHE who always lived in her own darkness although many thought SHE walked out of it . the world where everything seems so cold and quiet when others thought it was a warm and happy world . the SHE who DONT LONG FOR HER PAST , HATES THE PRESENT AND NT HOPING FOR THE FUTURE . feeling so tired now . i just want to go into a deep sleep and rest well . maybe a hibernation ? since i am as cold as a snake if u think i am . i am only hoping to see them . the ppl who will always bring smiles to me . the ppl who will treat me like a princess ; making me happy . and BEING MYSELF ; can cry , laugh and become crazy and have fun .

♥ 10:25 PM