slept only for 6 hours . going back to normal condtion , i think . hahas . do my english homework . then watched tv lo . then do amaths . need to revise if nt i forget everything . then went out for a walk at 2 . the place very nice and peaceful . i also thought alot of things through . wad is nt meant to be mine will never be mine . let nature take its course . LOL . knew this all along but i just dont want to face up to reality bahs . hahas . ytd i felt so great after telling and talking to someone the things i kept to myself for 3 years . SOOO RELIEVED NOW . went back at about 3 . did physics revision . i am a gd girl afterall . but i cried . not really lars . just i opened my notebk . then saw the thing he last time draw . the stars like all piled up . then drop few tears lo . then went into a daze for 20 mins . and i thought y am i torturing myself like tt . it is all over . yet i am thinking about it and crying over it again and again . no one would care . the earth wont stop her revolutions . neither will the time stop for me . he also wont care and feel sry . now i found back meaning and goal in my life . which i thought i lost it . is to go to australia or anywhere tt allows me to do research on my killer whales + swimming with them . saying all these useless . need to do it then gt use . so nw need to focus . =) but i will still keep him in my heart since i cant forget for the time being . lols . watched tv and then went to buy dinner . and i watched tv . SORRY to xuanwei . lols . cos ytd i win him 1 game then he angry with me . dont angry lers . ytd was playing games with ade and xuanwei on msn . me and terance cant play any games . lols . but nvm . anyways . jie mei .. dont angry lers . i apologise . hahas . i put big big lo . hahas . *SMILES*